“You never find yourself until you face the truth“ -Pearl Bailey
Living a life on purpose in today’s society is not an easy thing to do. What that means is stepping out of the constraints society has set for us and in turn listening to what our heart truly desires. We have all been put into a box in one-way or another. It could have been a really small box with no room for change or a really big box where lots of growth could have been had. At the end of the day it doesn’t really matter. We are all conditioned to be what our parents, relatives, friends, and society think we should be until one day we wake up and ask ourselves the questions “Who am I and, What do I want out of my life?”
This is how my journey began a little over 4 years ago.
Graduating college I knew 2 things:
1- I didn’t want to live in New York City with the rest of my friends.
2- I didn’t want to work in the fashion industry after I had just completed a fashion merchandising degree.
Guess what I did, I moved into NYC a month after graduation and got a job working for a Fortune 500 fashion company. Instead of listening to my intuition and inner guidance, I succumbed to the fears my parents had had about me finding work and making a generous salary. It took 5 years of being angry, depressed, mad at the world, and a weight gain of 30 lbs before I realized I need out! When I made that decision my whole life changed in an instant. I had this gut feeling that I needed to move to Los Angeles and I had no idea why. I had only been there twice in my life, I knew absolutely no one there, and I didn’t have a job lined up, but after a lot of soul searching and contemplation I decided this was the next step to living my truth. I quit my job, moved out of my apartment, broke up with my then boyfriend, and moved across the country all within two months. Let me tell you that was the best thing I could have ever done for myself. During that time I took up meditation and started asking myself what am I passionate about? What is my purpose here? What is it that really gets me excited about life? How can I be more of service? These were the questions I am still asking myself, but I am aware that I am much more aligned with my purpose today.
Through all this inquiry I found what it is that made my heart sing. I knew I loved the outdoors and needed to live by the beach for one thing. The other had always been my interest in nutrition and the well being of others. What do you think I did? I moved to Santa Monica two blocks from the beach and dedicated my time and energy to the health and wellness arena. I went back to school to get my Masters in Spiritual Psychology and became the manager and a teacher at Pure Barre in Brentwood. Fast forwarding a few years I completed my Masters degree, became the owner of two Pure Barre studios, a certified Life & Health Coach, and am currently back in school for Holistic Nutrition. All of this because I finally decided to listen to what my soul had been trying to tell me for so many years. Only you know what is best for you and it is never too late to change. Do what you love to do everyday even if it is takes you to begin with only five minutes. Keep a journal with you and see what motivates you and gets you out of bed each morning. I promise that soon enough you will start to hear the guidance of your soul showing you the way to your truth. I am a living testament that you can have it all and be happy doing what you love if you just surrender and trust the process.